I feel like i just work up from a long dream.
ok so finally an update: Harvest is over, it went very well, loads of experiences both good and bad... honestly the hardest job
i've ever had. we worked hard and played hard. work was usually non-stop multitasking, stretching us to the limit most days... lost a few interns because it ended up being a little too much for them. i know i was asked to do things i know weren't possible in the time frame ask and had to just stand there when i was hounded by the all too common, "why are you not done yet?" or asked to do a job i wasn't sure how to do and bugged over and over again to finish but never offered support. it was very stressful, the constant presence of managers but lack of management, know what i mean? but i feel it helped me grow and strengthen me. i'm glad at the end of the day we had a fun place to hang out...the intern house. it was a sanctuary of peace and relaxation, and a place to party and comfy couch to crash on. we usually could find some fun to get into at work and the bonds are always stronger when made under that kind of stress. don't wanna make it sound like i hated it, it was just a tough job and at times it was nearly unbearable: physically, mentally and emotionally... but we made it fun somehow.
now what? i don't know :-(
i'm actually freaking out because i figured i would fall into something
by now. part of the reason i came up here for this job was to see if this was what i really wanted to do... is this the career path i wanted to take... i was looking for a little inspiration, perhaps a little guidance... and i came to the conclusion, i don't want to be in my bosses position... when i look back at all the winemakers and managers
i've worked for, i don't wanna be them. so if i continue on this path i think
i'll end up being them, i don't see myself being happy with that. so again, now what? i could us a little advice...when you picture me in 10 years...what do you see me doing? i have kind of taken this week off from worrying about it too much but
monday i think i might blanket the brewing industry in
portland. i figure with my
experience in the winery cellar and my interest in beer it should be a good choice, at least a change in pace that
i'm looking for. who knows what will happen... i did see a ad for "hickory farms", i could always sell sausage and cheese at the mall ;-)
